Oh and can I mention that for me, setting goals is also tough. I'm constantly thinking about what to do with my life. I'm graduating in almost 9 months and after summer, I need to be going to school. I am not the type of person that can do one thing everyday for the rest of my life. I need a little diversity to keep me going. My range of things to do have gone from being a hairdresser, to going to business school. To becoming a dental hygienist, and now I'm looking into an optomologist technician. I look at people who decided what they wanted to be when they hit Junior high and have stuck with that decision. I admire you so much. Every single woman in my family have been able to put their husbands through school with the jobs that they had earned. Why am I not the same way?
I'm not the type of person that just decides one day to become a nurse because I want to save lives. Nope not at all. I can't stand blood, and the thought of seeing a naked old person just gives me the creeps. And anything dental was never an option because the sight of someone pulling out their retainer puts me on the verge of puking every time. If you think about it, I've basically thrown out every medical opportunity there is for women.
So where does that leave me college wise? Good question, I'm still trying to figure it out for myself. I'm open to any suggestions? Seriously just throw them out there. My skills include, sandwich making, and picture taking. I'm quite good with people, and I can be quite persuasive. I'm a good typer, but an awful essay writer. I love kids, and sports. I basically just wrote a resume, now if only some multi-million dollar company would discover me and put me to work. if only life were that easy.
What I've learned in these past few months is that I need to start doing things that I'm not great at. For example: I went skating the other day. I was awful, not even lying. But the feeling afterwards of knowing that I tried and gave it my best shot was enough for me to realize that I'm not going to be great at everything. Trust me the list of things I'm good at is definitely shorter than the things I'm not good at. Making eye contact has always been difficult for me, because I just find it so awkward to stare deeply into someones eyes as they talk to you. I look at their hair instead, people tell me it makes them uncomfortable, so I'm trying to get better. Another example is dating. The one person I could see myself with I turned down, and though I'm not over him, he definitely got over me because facebook says so. It just makes me think that if I would have just tried to step out of my comfort zone and do something that I wasn't great at, I could have ended up happier and not been regretting my decision. If only...
